Big Ball Of Anxiety

My mid term is basically done.

I have a presentation to do on Friday and while it annoys me, at least I don't have to memorize anything for hours. There are a bunch of smart younger students in my group, let them memorize for hours. I'm KIDDING. Kinda.

Anyhoo, in any other weeks the above fact may cause me to jump up and down and nap for hours in front of the TV with big bowl of caramel popcorn.

Not this week though.

MY SOUL NATION GIG IS THIS SATURDAY!

And D'Makaveli's Halloween party the guys have worked so much for in Buddha Bar? IT'S THIS FRIDAY!

WHY AM I TALKING IN ALL CAPS?

Ahem. So yeah, the biggest gig of the year is approaching fast, giving me heavy burden on my shoulders. I have one goal and one goal only : charm them off their pants. That sounds wrong but whatever. As some of you might know, I asked 3 rappers and a singer to collaborate in a few songs. The total number of tracks would be 17 and I'm also gonna be accompanied by my backing rapper who will do crazy stuff with his talk box and a DJ. My busy mid term made me practice less than I'd hoped for. But I'm gonna get one tomorrow night and hopefully we an practice again before or after sound check.

It didn't really hit me before how all artists basically compete here. There will be 4 or more stages in the area so when your show is at the same time with another artist's, it's like you are on each other's throats. I've seen a lot of my fellow rappers / singer tweeted and promoted their sets online. Sometimes even too much. They told each other good luck and dropped nice words, but I've been doing this for so long to see which ones are genuine and which ones are basically a silent threat. It's like they said, "More people will watch me. I'll perform better than you so sleep with one eye open!" through the smileys.

Yeah, they made me nervous. Yeah, every time I read about them practicing every night to develop their already-crazy gimmicks and collaborations ( one group will be accompanied by break dancers covered by silver paint from head to toe, how could I top THAT? ), I winced a little. I got into a full self doubting mode and I need to slap myself in the face to focus. I shouldn't think about what other artists will bring to the table, I should only think about WHAT I will. They could hire chimpanzees in pink tutus for all I care.

Big question for you though : What do you think I should wear? I should have two prepared for the show. Something pretty, fierce, yet at the same time enable me to move and jump around. Tube dress is out of the question, of course. I don't need to display my boobs to the whole audience, in case I get too energetic.

Speaking of what to wear, I already got my Halloween costume delivered. It includes sexy sequined dress and blond wig. Guess who I would be?

35 comments:

  1. Tia said...:

    what are the outfit choices???

    i love dress-up. =)

  1. Sheri said...:

    You are going to have a great time at the party and the gig! Are you dressing up as Tila Tequila?!?

  1. ScoMan said...:

    You top that silver crap easy.. With the awesome sounds and songs you can deliver. Gimmicks may be fun for a little bit, but it's the songs people stay for.

  1. amindinmotown said...:

    So you caved and you're really going to go as Tila?? I cannot wait to see a photo of that!

  1. Nic said...:

    Good luck for all your upcoming shows! Knock 'em dead!!

  1. MKL said...:

    Ndee! You will rock the place, don't worry too much, just be yourself. That'll do it. You know, those who talk a lot usually lack actions.

    You know you have few hard core fans here (TWSS!) and we'll stand by you no matter what ;)

    As for Halloween, I know what you'll wear, but I won't tell ;)

  1. carissajaded said...:

    I can't wait to read the post after the Livenation event! Gooood luck!

  1. babe, if only dublin-jakarta is NOT THAT far, I would have fly back to go to your gig. like for real.

    and if only i have not planned to make nasi lemak for *ahem* i would have come to your gig (not that i love you less though)

    your songs are as awesome as they are. i let gummy listen to your songs and he loves it! he thought you were some established artist. if a geeky but funny surgeon loves your songs, everyone will too :)

  1. Sarah said...:

    Good luck with the gig! Also, I'm going to use the phrase "charm them off their pants" all the time now.

  1. Kimberly said...:

    Sending you good vibes for this Saturday, good luck with everything!!

  1. Toothfairy said...:

    good luck on the gigs, girl! you'll do fine! seriously, are you going to be tila?! bwahahha...

    *loves*

  1. MAISON CHAPLIN said...:

    Hi dear, come check the new post! Good luck for the presentation ^^

    Link me!
    @ MaisonChaplin.blogspot.com

  1. Heather said...:

    HOW AWESOME!! That is going to be SO much fun!! I so very happy for you!! What are the outfit options?

  1. Chase said...:

    SO excited for you and your show! You'll rock it :)
    Good luck with the project. Be sure to let us know how the show goes

  1. Caro said...:

    Good luck for the show, don't worry about it, you'll kick ass!

  1. Gracie said...:

    I can't wait to see your costume!! I think you will be awesome and definitely focus on your performance. I truly hope it all goes well and I'm sure you will be fantastic!! Can't wait to see photos and read about it.

  1. Kelvin Kao said...:

    Your music is good so you have less to worry about gimmicks!

  1. Trixie said...:

    Good luck on the show!

    Are you dressing up as Lady Gaga?

  1. Andhari said...:

    @Tia : I thought of wearing a black jumpsuit on the second half of the show, but I need good jacket for it. Can't dress too open or otherwise I'll feel uncomfortable. ANd for the first half, I don't know, casual dress?

    @SHeri : Thanks Sheri. And yesss. Hahaha.

    @Scoman : I know, I keep telling myself that too but it's easy to feel nervous these days

    @MinD: Oh i caved. I caved BIG time. LOL.

    @Nic: Thank you, girlie.

    @MKL : What can I do without an elf like you? Haha. You damn sure know a lot of inside info.

    @Carissa: Thank youu...and it's soulnation lol..

    @Ejannz : OMG cooking for the dude already? Romantic. Don't forget to put sexy music on.

    @Sarah : Hahaha yeah it's quite an addictive phrase.

    @Kimberly : Thank youuu!:)

    @Toothfairy : Seriously. You should see my blond wig LOL

    @MAison : I will :)

    @HEather: Jump suits, jackets, probably a casual dress. Nothing too open or too tight because I wanna be able to jump around. What do you think?

    @CHase: I will update as usual. With tons of pics and video also, I hope.:)

    @Caro L You're so kind, thank you..:)

    @Gracie : Thank you!:)

    @Kelvin : That's a nice pep talk to hear hahaha I'll do my best :) thank you.

    @Trixie : No, I'll be dressing up as Tila Tequila LOL

  1. Sebastian said...:

    Well, I won't give you clothing advice -- that's definitely not my forte -- but good luck for the gig!

    I'm sure you'll charm their pants off. You are good at the charming :)

  1. // krissy ♥ said...:

    Wow that was fast! I'm so excited for you! Blow them away Ndee! Ü

  1. ChinkyGirLMeL said...:

    OMG!I'm so hyped and excited for you. I'm nervous just thinking about it. what are you going to wear??? You need to be comfortable and still look hot. =) But I'm sure you can pull that off.

  1. NITIA / MONTO said...:

    no reason for anxiety, girl. i know somewhat you're gonna be big!

    did you hear prambors all the time yesterday? i did. they couldn't stop telling you; you're great! so no reason to worry whether the crowd will like it or not. you can pull that off! :)

    i'm thinking of becoming Hanna Montana on halloween. lols.

  1. Nashe^ said...:

    Whatever you wear, make it fabu. You're gonna rock it!

    That's all.

  1. Nahl said...:

    Good luck!
    You'll rock it!

  1. MAISON CHAPLIN said...:

    Hi dear, thanks for the comment, I really appreciate what you did! ;)
    Come check out the new posts, hope you like it! ;)

    With love, Maison Chaplin ^^

    Link me
    @ MaisonChaplin.blogspot.com

  1. f.B said...:

    You said it: they could hire chimpanzees in pink tutus.

    Chimpanzees in pink tutus are not music. Just do you.

  1. Fizzgig said...:

    Tila! awesome! youll maka a great tila!

    and youll do great at the shows!!!

  1. fgrngtllt said...:

    i look forward to the pics of u as tila!!!!

    maybe wear a dress wit short sleeves and maybe a little cleavage?!?!

  1. Ms. Salti said...:

    Go with something hot and sexy... get all the guys' attention! And good luck!

  1. مى said...:

    Aww..! Good luck! :)

    I'll try to catch up on your blog to see what you're all about and make sense of what I just read :)

    x

  1. Sequences and a blonde wig... ? My guess is Shakira :P

  1. drollgirl said...:

    oh god. you are going to knock their socks off AND their pants off!!!!

    and if you weren't nervous you'd be a total slacker.

    you are going to SHINE!!!!

  1. Wonderful said...:

    I'm no fashionista, but I bet a pair of skinny jeans or tight pants and a sexy flowy top with some fierce high heels would do the trick--that way you can move around but still catch their attention!

  1. I can see why this was a burden on you! So of did it go? What did you wear???