Today I read A Severe Mercy and it was nowhere near as bad as I thought. See, based upon what I had heard about it and then after reading The Problem of Pain, I was starting to be afraid that Seth and I have been entirely too happy, so God is going to kill one of us or throw some horrendous hardship into our lives in order to strengthen our faith. I don't know. I realize that these aren't entirely new thoughts. Sometimes, when I think about how great my life is, I get nervous, so I think about the list of things that have been hard or wrong or trying in my life, just to make sure they're there and I am not too happy. It's messed up, I know.
I thought it was done, but I guess that trusting God truly and knowing that he doesn't play mind games takes time. As I'm writing this, I realize that this "too happy" nonsense had taken the place of the previous ingrained fear of "don't tell God what you don't want to do, or he'll be sure to set you right on that course!" You know, the old stories you'd hear about a man saying, "God, I'll do anything for you, just don't send me to Africa!" And, of course, after kicking and screaming, the man finally goes to Africa, like God wanted him to, and all is great. The is the kind of spiritual manipulation I grew up with! I know I'm not the only one.
So, the book wasn't all that bad. I guess in my mind-games land, I saw that the couple in the book were actually quite obsessed with one another and worshiped their love. We don't do that. I don't know. There are still things floating around in my head. Once again, I'll let you know if I come up with anything concrete.
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